They say ignorance is bliss.Oh yes!It indeed is. Who would know this better than her? She didn't live on the edge anymore. She didn't wait for his call anymore.She didn't fear hearing his voice go strained anymore. She didn't wake up everyday to look at the rising sun to pray for a better day. She didn't sight the moon to weep. She didn't look at the stars to wish anymore. She didn't dread the moment when he would declare his engagement anymore. She didn't fear losing him anymore.For she knew it was a lost battle. It was impossible to fight herself and it was too much of a task to fight him.
She took the easiest way out and that was to go through it. She chose to confront herself. What if he rejected her? What if she lost him? What if she never saw him again? All these somehow weighed better than the constant agony of the incorrigible fear. All her fears were realised when the path she chose greeted her with outright rejection, insanity and a permanent loss. But it didn't hurt as much as she had expected. She knew this is where she had to give up for she didn't have anything more to give and she did so. Cutting him off her was easy.
Without hope life was easier.She could think of him anytime, anywhere without any obligations. She could love him as much as she wanted without having to express it. She could pray as and when she wanted. She could breathe easy with nothing on mind except the present and the reality. It was a relief beyond measure. Yes, ignorance of the unknown ,the future, is indeed a bliss - one that paves way to simpler living !
She took the easiest way out and that was to go through it. She chose to confront herself. What if he rejected her? What if she lost him? What if she never saw him again? All these somehow weighed better than the constant agony of the incorrigible fear. All her fears were realised when the path she chose greeted her with outright rejection, insanity and a permanent loss. But it didn't hurt as much as she had expected. She knew this is where she had to give up for she didn't have anything more to give and she did so. Cutting him off her was easy.
Without hope life was easier.She could think of him anytime, anywhere without any obligations. She could love him as much as she wanted without having to express it. She could pray as and when she wanted. She could breathe easy with nothing on mind except the present and the reality. It was a relief beyond measure. Yes, ignorance of the unknown ,the future, is indeed a bliss - one that paves way to simpler living !
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