After every argument and disagreement, she asked herself, "Is it worth it?"
She was confused, scared and in doubt. All these emotions intensified several folds when she thought about the basis on which she hung on to them. For she was alone.She was rational to the core, she justified all her thoughts eventually. Dissecting every thought and bringing them down to absolute lucidity was a habit inherent in her.
Her people found her eccentric and complex, vague at times but when she came up with simple solutions at times they were just surprised. It never occurred to them that the things she spoke might be tried, tested or simply processed. So when she wanted some clarity, she was either left alone or given abrupt comments.
Now here she was in this particular situation which was totally crazy according to everyone around her. Maybe it was. She considered it. She had questioned it while it came bang into her life, she had questioned it when it started seeping in into her life, she had questioned it when it made her miserable, she questioned it when it made her go maddeningly happy. All through it she never forgot to feel and enjoy while crucifying it to sensibilities. Despite what people said, things made sense to her. Her instincts stood by her as guardians through the loneliness.
She asked herself again, "Is it worth it?" a millionth time and she knew instantly that -Yes! It is and was all the while.
She was confused, scared and in doubt. All these emotions intensified several folds when she thought about the basis on which she hung on to them. For she was alone.She was rational to the core, she justified all her thoughts eventually. Dissecting every thought and bringing them down to absolute lucidity was a habit inherent in her.
Her people found her eccentric and complex, vague at times but when she came up with simple solutions at times they were just surprised. It never occurred to them that the things she spoke might be tried, tested or simply processed. So when she wanted some clarity, she was either left alone or given abrupt comments.
Now here she was in this particular situation which was totally crazy according to everyone around her. Maybe it was. She considered it. She had questioned it while it came bang into her life, she had questioned it when it started seeping in into her life, she had questioned it when it made her miserable, she questioned it when it made her go maddeningly happy. All through it she never forgot to feel and enjoy while crucifying it to sensibilities. Despite what people said, things made sense to her. Her instincts stood by her as guardians through the loneliness.
hmm...interesting...
ReplyDeletewell written!! - anu.
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