Its feels great to have my senses back! Glad to be my usual self after the months of endless tug of war between my mind and heart. Finally both are on the same track moving towards the same direction. It all started with a casual chat in a yard across a simple hut. Casual as it was meant to be , it had more to it. Chemistry was evident to anyone who saw us laughing like crazy with the first exchange of words.
As destiny would have it this association grew into a habit. Talks were frequent but never too intense. Everything was superficial for it was an interaction between two heartless people. People who in their own ways were mature, practical and were capable of foreseeing things. They followed the rules and keeping a strict rein over their emotions was a priority over anything else.
For a change it was " Like attracts like". This spelled doom. For the conversations started getting sore as they already knew each others thoughts. Accepting each others flaws and drawbacks was easy as the foundation of empathy was strong. But anything that goes against nature doesn't last forever. Like minds do not go a long way. It has to be positive and negative ;yin and yang; so the cycle was broken.
I was the integral part of this cycle. First I fought not to be a part of it, then I gave in and now I am out. Resistance took the lion's share of efforts and I fell out just like a leaf out of its branches, naturally. The intermediate phase was a mixture of the best as well as worst emotions but now when I look back I just call it as a chemical or hormonal derailment.
The longest five months of my life have come to an end for now I know this is not what I want for my future. Juggling between right and wrong, handling the upsurge of emotions, playing with words and situations were all a part of the big collage which is now complete. This phase has taught me to hold on to my values no matter what. My integrity was put into fire to bring out the finest quality of gold.
I am grateful to the man who has shared the equal space with me through this phase. I am thankful to him for knowingly or unknowingly making me realize my own worth and helping me turn into a better individual.Strength, people say comes from within and today I gladly agree that it does.I am thankful to the wonderful" time" for playing the trick and making me see light. My senses which had gone for a long ride are back and I am glad to find them refined and revitalized.
As destiny would have it this association grew into a habit. Talks were frequent but never too intense. Everything was superficial for it was an interaction between two heartless people. People who in their own ways were mature, practical and were capable of foreseeing things. They followed the rules and keeping a strict rein over their emotions was a priority over anything else.
For a change it was " Like attracts like". This spelled doom. For the conversations started getting sore as they already knew each others thoughts. Accepting each others flaws and drawbacks was easy as the foundation of empathy was strong. But anything that goes against nature doesn't last forever. Like minds do not go a long way. It has to be positive and negative ;yin and yang; so the cycle was broken.
I was the integral part of this cycle. First I fought not to be a part of it, then I gave in and now I am out. Resistance took the lion's share of efforts and I fell out just like a leaf out of its branches, naturally. The intermediate phase was a mixture of the best as well as worst emotions but now when I look back I just call it as a chemical or hormonal derailment.
The longest five months of my life have come to an end for now I know this is not what I want for my future. Juggling between right and wrong, handling the upsurge of emotions, playing with words and situations were all a part of the big collage which is now complete. This phase has taught me to hold on to my values no matter what. My integrity was put into fire to bring out the finest quality of gold.
