Loneliness-the strangest thing I have ever experienced but still its the most integral part of me.I have tried a lot to understand this emotion but in vain!Its strange because it brings out the best and the worst in me.The most beautiful and the most dreadful thoughts emerge in this state of mind!I call it a state of mind ,the reason being-I can't say I am lonely because I have no one to understand me or share the precious thoughts or trivialities of life.In fact I am surrounded with my dearies and I am still haunted by this monster.I try to justify it by giving myriad reasons but reasons take a secondary place to this emotion.Its so strong that I forget everything else that matters.
I have tried to reason it with my mood swings but it doesn't make any sense.I have tried to curb it by trying to reach out to people both who are close and strangers but miraculously I cant reach them the way I usually do.I mean I do talk to them but the "connection" is totally absent.
I really want to know the reason behind this drudgery.Is it common to all????or is it a special thing reserved for me?????I would either like to fight it or get used to it.And I am trying my level best for a breakthrough.I guess its more of a process than a thing to be learnt overnight.Till then I will keep breaking my head and keep writing.Guess this is a very good way of expressing myself when I dont find anyone else to share my drudgery!
DG
I have tried to reason it with my mood swings but it doesn't make any sense.I have tried to curb it by trying to reach out to people both who are close and strangers but miraculously I cant reach them the way I usually do.I mean I do talk to them but the "connection" is totally absent.
I really want to know the reason behind this drudgery.Is it common to all????or is it a special thing reserved for me?????I would either like to fight it or get used to it.And I am trying my level best for a breakthrough.I guess its more of a process than a thing to be learnt overnight.Till then I will keep breaking my head and keep writing.Guess this is a very good way of expressing myself when I dont find anyone else to share my drudgery!
DG
I appreciate d wy u write.
ReplyDeleteI dint noticd d whole matr clearly wen i read 4r d 1st time bt wn i hd a close read 4r 2nd tme 2dy i mst sy ur view on lonliness is wndrful..i liked it persnly....cz its smwer close to me..like smething hs been writn on ma behalf.
I never thot of expressing sch things on ny blog.. bt u hve dne dis job.
keep writing dibzy dear.
cheers!!
- BHAVDA.